Do any other parents get this? Recently I have had a spell when I keep thinking of my own childhood and the?

lives my parents led. This has got me very down/teary etc I keep thinking how hard life was for them both..money was very scarce and both had to work very hard. As well as that I know that family life was a big disappointment to them in the sense that it got my Mum very depressed and Dad depressed too..both handled it differently. Mum by being withdrawn and indifferent and Dad trying to over compensate - giving me extra money/sweets etc even though it meant putting himself into debt. I am nearly at the age they were when they had me and in many respects I just feel like life is pointless as I in some ways am feeling like life with my beautiful daughter can be like ground hog day too and so I worry history will repeat itself. I also feel enormous guilt on both fronts - with my parents for not being grateful for all they did for me and for taking until the age of 30 to realise just how difficult it can be to parent someone..at the time my siblings and I were all me me me and want